Musings by the 'Queen who renounced her kingdom'

I am a person who truly believes that there is always so much to do, so much to learn, so much to enjoy...and enough laziness in each one of us to put off all of the above!!

The concept of boredom has been eluding me forever, unlike most of the people i know. I am constantly battling against not having 'enough' time ( well proven by the fact that this is my 4th blog, but the first one I am actually 'posting' on!). I always had the excuse of being a part of the mincemeat existence of Mumbai city.. you are constantly being minced between people, in the train, in rush hour traffic, at work, while running the rat race, while party hopping or even while u wait for a table at your beloved Totos!

So, for more reasons than I would like to publicly state, i decided to be the bigger person ( or so i would like to believe) and take a much deserved sabbatical. I pictured myself as the leading protagonist in Robin Sharma's next, titled the "Queen who renounced her kingdom" .. ! With surprising vigour i set out on the path of discovery.. I wanted to discover a new country, a new art, new skills ,new bonds with old friends and even myself.

Time flew, I discovered the new country, I am trying to master a new skill (albeit not very successfully), have enrolled to learn a new art, have bonded literally with all kith and kin.. and now I am facing the question of having discovering myself.

Having studied a bit of psychology in college, the concept of 'existential vacuum' is something I am well versed in theory with, however I have no idea about Viktor Frankl's true renditions in my existence. I have always been acutely planned, infinitely focussed and truly passionate towards my family, my friends, my work, my play! Am i chasing my true calling.. ?? well, I am not.. I think i am living my true calling! Have I ever hated anything I have ever done, or any ties that i have forged ?..Not really, i have always loved and enjoyed most of the things I have done and people I have spent time with! Will i want to continue my life with the same fervour, excitement, passion that I have done in the last many years?.. I would Love to!!! Would i probably want another break a few years down the line to relax my muscles and rekindle my faith ... oh, i definitely would!

I do not think i can be the progeny of the monk who sold his ferrari, coz my kingdom has not come at the same cost he paid for his ferrari.. i invested in it and did not pay a price for it.. and i would love to build my kingdom and renounce it again.. and again.. and again!